Elimidrol will change your life...

My Elimidrol came a bunch of weeks ago. I've wanted to try it for a bit before I reviewed it. If you want to learn more about what Elimidrol is then please view my post here called "Divorce, Vicodin, Elimidrol and the Future."

 

So here's what it looked like when it came... packing was totally discrete in case any of you were wondering.  

 

 

And this stuff looks like this...

 

I went into this with an open mind and very much wanting to see results so I could move forward with life.

 

I. Really. Love. This. Stuff.

 

Just a quick side note: If you are looking at the Elimidrol website and thinking to yourself, 'I don't need to order the night time stuff...I can just get the day time stuff and take Benadryl at night.' Back that thought process up right now! The night time Elimidrol formula is so A.M.A.Z.I.N.G.

 

When I tried the night time stuff I wasn't really sure how well it would work. Anyone who has tried to kick opioids knows that the nights are the worst...the restless legs would make me crazy! But this stuff was awesome! I took it and actually expected it to take a long time to work but it actually kicks in really quick and its not like a horrible feeling...it sort of eases you into, you start to yawn and it just feels like your are ready for bed. I sleep so so so so great when I use this stuff. As a natural insomniac I actually would take this on a regular basis just as a sleep aid instead of my regular Benadryl.

 

I seriously love the Elimidrol night time formula!

 

The day time formula works great too! Gives me lots of energy and all the vitamins and minerals really do help your body heal itself.

 

Over all I'm super happy that I found this stuff! It's totally changed my life.

 

For anyone who is wanting to make a change in their life, free themselves from opioid dependency and move on to a brighter future...Elimidrol is the best choice you can make!

Divorce, Vicodin, Elimidrol and the Future...

With divorce comes the inevitable stage of self introspection...a place of re-evaluating who you are and what you want as a person. Surely there are people who get divorced, throw a raging "I"m Divorced" party complete with balloons and a cake shaped into the form of divorce papers. And for some that may be the path they choose to deal with the life change of divorce. Realistically, I think throwing a party and blowing past the introspection phase isn't going to do anyone any favors. It's just a matter of time before you have to deal with learning/discovering who you really are and what you really want.

So I've chosen to go the long way around...and by that I mean really take some time to get into my own head space and learn about why I am where I am, the type of person I want to be and ultimately how I can get there.

If you've read my previous posts then you are familiar with the fact that I did not marry for love...I married because it was what was expected of me. In case any one is wondering, no I did not have an arranged marriage dictated by religious beliefs. First of all I was way too young to be getting married...I had no business making that kind of life decision at twenty-one years old. Second, I was very much someone who was taught to weight your own happiness against the collateral damage (other people's unhappiness). And now nearly ten years later I have finally admitted it wasn't right to begin with and it isn't working.

Being in an unhappy marriage for so many years forces you to find way to cope. Initially I was prescribed hydrocodone to deal with painful health issues but that quickly became a catalyst for a way to deal with my unhappiness in my situation a little bit at a time. I know it seems silly to someone who has never experienced addiction of any kind...but there is a fine line between using it to help medical issues and loosing yourself in it. I'm probably very similar to you....I'm a professional, I have a child, I am a people pleaser, I never do anything wrong, I shop at Kate Spade and J. Crew, I live in middle class suburbia with two dogs and a cat.

Addiction effects so many types of people. My addiction began with my doctor. And those little white pills quickly became a way to make myself happy for an hour or so at a time...it helped by making being stuck in an unhappy relationship tolerable. So that's what I did for the last three years. At first I though it I had found a solution and as long as I kept it in check I would be fine. It's true what they say...when you use opiates over long periods of time you're body (mainly your brain) learns to function with them. But once you stop taking them, that's when your brain and your body freaks out because it doesn't remember how to work normally without the help of opiates. And once you've been on them long term you find your body still suffers from strange side effects like mild depression, inability to focus or concentrate.

I've tried to stop both ways. Once I ran out of pills and I couldn't get anymore for a few days. I was miserable and battled the horrid side effects of withdrawal but as soon as my prescription was able to be filled again I was in line at the pharmacy and taking my first pill as soon as I got out the door. The other time I decided to quit on my own, I still had a supply so I decided to taper off. However, after a few days things got rocky at home and I found myself reaching for my usual quantity to help deal with my unhappiness.

So here I am today. Getting divorced and re-evaluating my life. And what I have come to figure out is that I don't want to be on these opiates any more. It's not the person I want to be. I want to wake up and feel joyful and rested....I don't want to be a slave to a bottle full of white pills. I had some research online and came across Elimidrol. There wasn't too much out there as far as reviews go...just a few Youtube videos and a bunch of forums with some minor discussion.

I looked at the ingredients which you can find here and its full of herbs and vitamins. Most of which I was familiar with individually. And I had seen some "recipes" online for using herbs and vitamins for withdrawal symptoms. However the major complaint was always that it was very expensive to purchase all of the needed beneficial supplements and also that once you had them it was very hard to find the proper combination of them to get the right therapeutic effects.

Elimidrol was designed for effectiveness and simplicity to make the detox process as easy as possible while alleviating the negative symptoms and promoting a positive mood throughout the entire process. Elimidrol is also non-addictive and non-habit forming...it's basically full of vitamins and herbs that a detoxing body needs to help function while it's adjusting to life without opiates.

What is Elimidrol? 

 

There's a daytime and a nighttime formula.

You add the recommended scoops into water and drink it. 

So I ordered my Elimidrol and am waiting impatiently for it to arrive on my door step. I'm very excited to try this as I would really like to put this horrid section of my life behind me.

Stay tuned and I will be documenting my journey with Elimidrol in future posts.

UPDATE...UPDATE....UPDATE...

I realized that I hadn't followed up on this post for you guys....so here you go! I seriously can't say enough good things about this product. It really did give me my life back. The day time formula helped with my energy level and really did help lessen the withdrawal effects.

And the night time formula was my HOLY GRAIL! Anyone who has withdrawn from any kind of opiates knows that sleep is nearly impossible with the restless legs and achy joints and all the anxiety...but the night time forumla was amazing. I'd take my scoop with water when I was ready for bed and within 15 to 20 minutes I was yawning and feeling like I was ready for bed...it surprisingly was a nice gentle was to fall asleep. I'd sleep through the whole night without any problems and wake up feeling refreshed.

I actually keep buying the night time formula to keep in my medicine cabinet...I obviously don't need it for opiate withdrawals any more but it's so amazing as a sleep aid and works better than all the other stuff I've tried in the drugstore (it all made me feel tired or groogy or hungover in the morning...this stuff doesn't do that! I love it!). 

In all seriousness if you're struggling with opiate addiction and want to get your life back on track this stuff worked great for me. Plus they have a money back guarantee so if you try it and it doesn't help you then contact them to get your refund. 

Give it a shot...I think you'll be really happy with the results...I know I am...I've got my life back and I feel like myself again.

Yea...divorce sucks.

The one thing that really ticks me off is when people (and by people I mean family) decide they don't know/want to deal with the reality that you are getting a divorce so they just pretend to be blissfully ignorant about the whole damn thing.

Seriously! When my brother gets a paper cut my mother is all "what can I do? what can I do? do you need a blood transfusion? Should I call 911?" But with me...with this whole "I need to get a divorce or I'm going to lose my damn mind" she's all "oh I don't know." Then it's all voicemails and crickets.

Reality check ladies...if you're thinking of getting a divorce you'd better be prepared to deal with things in one of the following ways...

1. Slit your wrists
2. Hitch a ride to Utah and become a sister wife
3. Put on your big girl panties and be ready to deal with it alone

So it's over...

So here it is...it's been done. We are separating. He's opting to move out.

On one hand I'm happy I finally got the courage to say I wasn't happy anymore and the relationship damage is beyond a quick fix. But on the other hand I feel really shitty about the fact that all signs indicate my marriage is over.

I thought I'd feel worse about it. But I don't. Maybe it's because its been too far gone for going on two years now or maybe it's because he hasn't actually left yet. Maybe when it will sink in when he finally has all his stuff and closes the door behind him for the last time.

Obviously there is still a huge mess to sort out...I'll be staying in the house so that's nice but now I have the stress of carrying the financial weight of that situation on my own.

I wish we could find the fast forward button and just skip to the place where we are both living on our own and everything has been sorted out. It would be nice to skip the stressful part. I know I'm fortunate that we both are committed to not having a messy divorce. I doubt we will fight over anything...which is nice. We both seem to want whats best for the kids and will do our best to co-parent them.

I also am feeling guilty. My mother and both my grandmothers stayed in relationships that were less than ideal because that was what they were "supposed" to do. When I look back at their relationships and try to place myself in the same situation...it's just horrible. No one wants to look back and feel like they wasted their life away instead of chasing after something that was head-over-heels-amazing. Maybe I'd feel less guilty if there weren't children involved. But then again, I don't want my daughter to look back on my life and feel the same way I feel about my mother. I want her to never waste time with anything less than amazing. I should probably take my own advice at this point...but it's still hard. And uncomfortable. And stressful.

Holy hell can we just find a fast forward button already!?

Lost but together...

I love someone else with all my heart and I would burn with him.

Thirty isnt so bad...

Turning thirty was one of the best things that has happened to me...even though I dreaded it painfully up until the minute it happened. It was a moment of clarity in my life. It helped me realize what I wanted, who I wanted to be and that I was going to disappoint some people on my way to making changes...at least that was easier declared in silent thought that it is in the real world. More on that later.

So I pretty much spent a year acknowledging that the life I was living wasn't exactly the life I wanted to be living. I loved my child, I loved my house, I loved my job...the only thing I wasn't in love with was my husband.

Today, as I type this, I am thirty-one years old...and I still haven't figured out how to tell him I need to let go.

Where to Start?

My life is not my own...

I married at twenty-one to a man I had known my entire life. Knowing him that long made it a safe move, right? Or at least that's what I thought. I also inherited his toddler child, his crazy ex-wife and what was only the beginning of a mounting pile of custody issues. I was young and I thought marrying a good man, a decent man would far out weight the lack of true love and passion in the long run. The realities of life seemed to pale in comparison to the idealistic idea that I was getting married and finally becoming a grown-up, a wife, a mother.

What I didn't know at the ripe old age of twenty-one was that I had no fucking clue who I was or what I wanted out of my life. Getting married. That's what I was supposed to do, right? At least that's what everyone had told me. Growing up I had a destiny and it was to become just like my mother and her mother before her and so on. You get married young and inevitably end up living a life you never wanted but stuck it out because it was what was best for everyone else. 

Over the past ten years I've always had a nagging feeling that this wasn't what "marriage" was supposed to be. But every time that voice crept into my head I would quickly toss it in a box and lock it away while rationalizing that it's better to base a marriage on a wise business decision and not on love/passion.That little box has done well over the years. Although, recently it's been filled to the max with those reminders that I'm likely wasting my life away not understanding and experiencing the beauty that is true love.

In my twenties it was much easier to drown those feelings. However, once I hit thirty there was no denying things weren't going to be fine much longer. Once I turned thirty there is was some kind of clock that detonated and I finally realized that I needed to put what I wanted first and to screw what everyone else wanted and thought my life should be. Although realizing it and executing those thoughts are two very different things. 

So there I was at thirty...I had a husband who I loved but wasn't in love with, a step-child, a toddler, a mortgage and some very painfully obvious thoughts that I needed to find a way out.